Sajak Orang Gila

Dalam ramai yang sepi
Ada senyum yang menyesakkan hati
Ada semangat yang melemaskan belati

Dalam sepi yang ramai
Ingin kubakar kamu dalam es yang beku
Atau menyayat lehermu dengan tumpul pensilku

Tapi aku yang terbakar
Aku yang tersayat

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